It’s been a while since the last time I wrote here…actually, come to
think of it, I never really wrote about something that really occupies my
thoughts. Probably it’s because I don’t have the time to put them into writing
or I just wanted to keep them for myself and never really talk about it.

I came across few articles/blogs and it made me feel that, somehow,
writing about your thoughts is not really a bad idea…especially if you don’t
have someone to discuss these thoughts with. (too bad for me, I guess…hehehe)

What am I thinking about now? Well, a lot of things…way lot of things.
Actually, most of these thoughts that I have now would be about my career…work.
I’ve been working in this company for almost four years now and I feel that
there’s no growth for me anymore. I want to move on and try another work but
something’s holding me back…not sure what that is. Could it be because I got
too comfortable with my current job and now I’m hesitant to take the risk and
look for other opportunities for me? It could also be that I can’t look for
another job that would have the same or similar compensation with what I’m
currently getting. I mean, with all the prices going up, this is one of the
first things that you consider when searching for a job. Or it could be that I
don’t have much faith with my capabilities anymore.

I know the last possibility that I mentioned is a bit disturbing but
there are instances that I feel this way. I must admit, I learned a lot of things,
both professional and personal, with my current job but at the same time I
somehow feel that being in this job for quite a while, I already lost my
capability to pursue the career that I wanted to begin with. The world that I
hoped to live in when I was still in college is a very competitive world, up to
now, that is still a fact. Whenever I watch the news and see how these people I
look up to do their jobs, I could only imagine the thrill that they’re
experiencing with every news they deliver. Oh, how I long to be part of them,
do the same things that they’re doing but as I’ve said, I’m not even sure anymore
if I have the edge to do that.

I guess for now this will just remain in my imagination.